The number one value that I hold in my life is to enjoy my time and have fun. I try my best to do things that I enjoy, and not be harsh on myself if im not the best at them. I think life should be enjoyable.
My main interests are in art and computers even though im not the best at them. A lot of my outlook on these things has been shaped by the people around me. I used to hold art as a much bigger part of me but now I really dont. I still do it as a hobby, but I am much more hesitant and nervous about it than I used to.
Most of the assignments I put in were fun to make and I enjoyed doing them. I was able to put a part of myself in them and they were overall fun to do. I didnt care about the grade or outcome, just the process of making. I think thats a thing that a lot of assignments fail to do for me.
I think its important to understand that a lot of assignments are simply just work and dont build onto a greater idea. Just like how a job can be just a job and not your life purpose, classwork isnt necessarily going to always make you learn. A lot of the assignments I chose werent really all that important in the grand scheme of things– they were just fun to do compared to other work I had to do. I think this is an important thing to keep in mind when doing things in life. You dont have to treat every single thing as an all important life changing thing, because in reality, it isnt.
A lot of my assignments relate to art because that is what I originally wanted to pursue as a career, but I ended up not going into. I dont think im ever going to stop drawing so it was good to be able to incorporate it into my assignments.
At Shawnee, I was able to be in a structured art class and I enjoyed it for the most part. It forced me to get out of my comfort zone. It helped me to realize that I need a lot of structure and need to be forced out of bad habits.
My mug that I made in art class at Shawnee relates to being a visionary because I came up with the design and made it real. My life under water relates to the members of the ecosystems outcome because it was related to nature. My personal website relates to lifelong learners because it sparked a lifelong learning path of website coding and old internet history.
Overall I have grown a lot as a person. I dont think my growth is because of the assignments I was given in class, but because of the people I have met and the interests I have formed. I am changed and influenced by the people around me extremely easily. I am lucky to have always been surrounded by beautiful and kind people that have good intentions.
future
I am going to college for Computer Science and hopefully transfer into a Computer Engineering degree program. I dont really know how that will work so im just going to leave that to my future self and hope it works out. At my previous school there were more opportunities to learn computer science skills in class, but New Roots didnt offer any so I have no experience in the field and dont know anything so hopefully I like it. I think I will struggle a lot with it since Im learning the field all from scratch and most likely going against people who have done it their whole life but Im hoping it will be all right. New Roots also didnt offer the right math courses in order for me to start the CS program so im going to have to see what happens with that. I think overall switching into New Roots hindered my academic progress on achieving what I want to do, but I cant really undo that so I am fine with that. A mindset that Ive felt that has helped me is to not dwell on the past.
Through working at my job for such a small time, Ive learned I do not like working and I want to avoid it at all costs. This has caused me quite a lot of distress since work is going to be a part of my life whether i like it or not, so im just trying to hope i come to terms with it. I am hoping to make enough money so that I can take a good amount of breaks with minimal work. On the contrary, because I grew up always being poorer than my peers, Ive learned to hate money and anyone richer than me, so I dont know how thatll develop if I get a high paying job like I want to. I think that is an interesting aspect about my thinking/reasoning process so im looking forward to seeing how that develops. An aspect of living I really enjoy is seeing how my thought process develops over time.
The current mindset I am trying is taking everything day by day. Honestly, I dont know what exactly im doing and am very ill prepared. All I can really do is hope that it turns out okay because thats what it usually does. Frankly, I think I am too unemotionally mature and childish for college and honestly society in general, but thats the path I have always been required to take so Im going to try.
